July 6, 2015
9:00 a.m.

Yeah, sleep doesn't seem to be an option. Bummer.

Last night I ranted a bit about my recent hospitalization, and now I feel bad, because I may have left the impression that I didn't get good care. I did.

Kudos to the doctors and nurses at Saint Anthony's North. You treated me well, and I thank you!

Okay, I have about eight different bruises from repeated attempts to start an IV, but the fact is, I have terribly uncooperative veins. No one's fault.

I'm a little concerned about getting a big old bill, though, since I had to be transported by ambulance from one facility to another. I hope my insurance covers it!

I'm also concerned about the follow up. I foresee an upper GI in my future. Ugh!
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About stress: I really don't know how to avoid it, although I'm sure it's true that I would be healthier and feel better without it. I still think it's beyond silly to tell someone not to stress about things they can't control, though. If you have control, there's no need to stress.

I wonder, after a pretty horrible night of stressing over something I can't control, if biofeedback might be for me. It would be nice to control the old brain waves, heartbeat, etc.

Actually, if I could just get my brain to shut up--that would be great.

There are a lot of crazy, dumb and not so great things going on with my family members right now, and I am powerless to change a thing. All I can do is watch from the sidelines, and hope and pray that things turn out okay. Talk about things I can't control. Someone, please tell me how to not stress about these things!

I wish I could really talk about things, but I can't. Although things make me worry, make me sad or even make me frustrated and angry, they are peripheral to me. They are not my things. Just things going on with people I love.

Gee, how I wish I could fix everything for everyone. If I had the chance to obtain a superpower, that's what I would wish for.
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We had a strange winter around here, with an early freeze in the fall and then a late freeze in spring that killed a lot of trees. This morning, I hear the sound of dead trees being removed. What a sad sound!
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Well, time for me to try to control some things I have no control over. Wish me luck. Have a great day.