September 2, 2014
10:31 p.m.

Wow, I am a horrible blogger! It's been days since my last post. I have no excuses. Bad me! Bad!

Okay, now I guess I'll be a little more honest.

It's hard for me to put myself out the in a negative way. I've said this before, I know. I just want to present a positive light. But the truth is, I haven't been feeling very positive lately, and so I have avoided writing anything.

I know I have also said in the past that if I'm going to do this, I need to confront the dark side. I guess I prefer not to acknowledge that I have a dark side!

How silly of me!

I've been having a rough time. Ever since I hurt my hip a few weeks ago, I've been in a great deal of pain. What started in my left hip has somehow managed to spread to all my joints. Just typing this now is causing me to wince and mutter. My fingers and wrists are stiff and achy. My elbows and shoulders do not want to bend. Walking hurts my hips, knees, ankles and toes. My neck is stiff. Even my ribs hurt.

I kind of feel like I'm going nuts here. I've tried to talk myself out of it, but I can't get comfortable, and so I haven't been sleeping well. As of tonight I've had about four hours sleep over the last seventy-two hour period.

My brain is feeling pretty stupid. I may begin slurring my words and walking into walls any minute now.

Yes, I went to the doctor. I've had blood tests which came back mostly normal for the test they've run so far. Mostly I was being ruled-out for rheumatoid arthritis. Osteoarthritis is positive, I've had that for years.

This is the beginning of a chain of rule-out diagnosis, I fear. The suspected diagnosis is Lupus, which has no definitive tests. Bummer.

Internet glitch! Will this save?

Only time will tell!