March 16, 2014
2:56 a.m.

I think I'm going to pull an all-nighter. I can't seem to get myself on a day schedule, and it's getting ridiculous. It's well past daylight when I finally get to sleep, then I wake up a couple of hours later and lay around reading because I don't have the energy to haul my fat fanny out of my bed. Dumb.

Am I depressed? Maybe...haven't been feeling great physically the last few weeks, which worries me. Haven't heard back from anyone about the job I want, either. So that's a bummer.

Nah. These are not abnormal things for me. I haven't had a job for years, so nothing has changed in that regard. When they do call me (please, God!) I will lose sleep because I'm excited-- but the fact is, I will lose sleep regardless, because that's who I am. I am "She Who Does Not Sleep".

I got the song "I Need You Tonight" stuck in my head earlier and finally had to look it up on YouTube.com and share it on Facebook, because "I'm not sleepin'".

It's crazy how a song lyric can get to spinning around in your head sometimes, isn't it? It's even worse when you can't figure out the song it's from. You go around humming it and trying to come up with enough of the words to figure out the title. And the only way to stop it is to listen to the damn thing, so you go round and round with it until you figure it out. It's enough to make you crazy.

And you know what's the very worst? When it's a song you don't even like. Gosh, I hate that.

At least I like the song stuck in my head right now. "I need you tonight, cuz I'm not sleepin', there's something about you..." la la la...

"I've got to let you know, you're one of my kind."

Love it. Oh, yeah, song's by INXS.

4:35 a.m.

Well, I tried to go to sleep, and here I am again. Pretty soon the sun will rise and I will probably walk down to the convenience store for a cup of coffee, because yesterday I--*gasp*--ran out of coffee. I also forgot to put it on the grocery list. I'm losing it, folks!

I'm watching Jerry Lewis in "The Bellboy" right now. I love old movies. And when I'm tired I love silly stuff. This is pretty silly.

I think my daughter and her family are coming for a visit later. I really should sleep. And  I would if I could. .

I'm looking forward to seeing the grandchildren. I can't believe that in a few days my grandson will be eight years old. It's terrible how fast time flies by.

I guess it's worse that my oldest, my son, turned thirty-five on the 5th. Thirty-five! My youngest daughter will turn thirty later this year. It hardly seems possible. I was just thirty myself last week!

To me, my kids are still these little tykes. I don't know how time zoomed by so fast! Weren't they cute?

By the middle of this year, all my children will be in their thirties. Does that mean I have to be a grown-up now?

Oh, wait! I saw a meme on Facebook the other day that said: "If you haven't grown up by the age of 50, you don't have to." So...cool! That's settled!

Me at thirty. Wish I could say I haven't changed!

But time is a bitch, right? Ugh! Perhaps I should try a smile!

Whatever....

Never mind. Like I said, time's a bitch. But I've gained so much through the passage of time. My children have become adults I can be proud of and my three daughters have given me seven beautiful grandchildren. What more could anyone ask for?

Except maybe that job I've been moaning about? (Hint to the universe.)

Or...a good night's sleep? (That would be nice!)

It's past 5:00 a.m. so I'm going to say that sleep opportunity has passed me by tonight and I'm just going to stay up and watch another movie or something. It's a matter of time, as well, and I no longer have time to get a decent amount of sleep before I have to get up, not with company coming over. Staying up is preferable to two to three hours of sleep. And perhaps if I stay awake until tonight, I might actually go to bed at a decent hour and get up at a reasonable hour of the morning.

Perhaps. It has been known to happen. Not often, but once in awhile.

Imagine it: "She Who Does Not Sleep", on a daytime schedule.

Well, we'll see, won't we?

Have a great Sunday, all! Adios for now!