March 19, 2014
11:29 p.m.

Another online test for a job today. I think I did really well on this one. Hopefully someone will call me soon. I'm feeling badly about the timing though. I RSPV'd for this thing last week--a number of candidates were to test at the same time--and yesterday I learned that a friend's brother had passed and his funeral was today. I wanted to go there, but the test won't be rescheduled for at least a month, if ever, and I committed myself to it after a phone interview last week. So...I logged on and took the test.

Ironic, isn't it? Generally speaking, I never have anything going on. Why does it have to happen that the one time I did, something else came up? I feel really badly now that I didn't go. I wish now I'd blown off the test. I don't know them and they don't know me. Odds are they'll never call. Why didn't I just call the whole thing off? What a loser I am!

Gee, it's a crazy life. I feel like I'm jumping through hoops in hopes of finding a job, and some of them I'm not even sure I want. This one seems fine, but I haven't been to the location yet, so who knows?

Besides, I still have my heart set on the other job, and apparently I am still in the running for it; but I have to continue my job search just in case.

I still worry that I may be passed over due to the fact that I became so sick a few years ago. But I spent a good amount of time in the building where I would work and had zero breathing issues while there. So I'm not worried about spending time in there, I'm sure I'll be just fine.

It's just that they asked me why I hadn't been working, and I was honest with them, so now I hope that isn't held against me. Not that I would consider doing it any other way. Lying only comes back and bites you in the behind and isn't worth it, not ever. (Unless the question is "Does this make me look fat?" If I ever ask you that, lie away!)

Enough about job hunting. One of these days I may actually get a job and won't have to think about this anymore.

I've been sleeping somewhat better the last couple of nights. Sometimes I just have to completely deprive myself so I can sleep several hours straight--I managed seven hours the other night. Yay, me! I haven't repeated that many, but I did get almost six hours last night, and that's awesome for me.

Hopefully I won't jinx myself by bragging! Ha ha!

Going on a diet. Whoo hoo! Not. I have such a slow, slow metabolism. Hopefully this will be more successful than the last nine months, when all I've managed to do is get back to the weight I was when I quit working. A whopping 16 pounds. I guess, logically, that's a pretty good weight loss. They say if it comes off slowly you have a better chance of keeping it off. I say if I can't have chocolate, what's the point? But this diet allows for my sweet tooth, thank goodness. So starting tomorrow morning, it's Low Glycemic Index time. Ah, me. I love carbs. *Sigh*

The plus side is that warmer weather is coming and I will get out and walk more. I have been so bad this winter. Arthritis and winter do not mix well. Not much of an excuse, but it's all I've got.

So I guess I should go to bed and go to sleep. Hopefully.

Good night!